so, uhh... yeah...

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Current mood: contemplative
Category: Friends

So, there's this guy... we'll call him "Mark." Well, "Mark" has been my best friend since, well, forever. And one day, "Mark" decides to tell me that he's thought of me as more than a friend before but after I told him that I'd never thought of him that way, "Mark" said something like, "Well, I don't think of you in that way any more." So, during a sport last year that I partook in, I told this girl, we'll call her "Blair" about the conversation with "Mark." "Blair" said, " 'Mark' was probably trying to figure out if you liked him or not, that's why he asked your opinion before saying how he felt now." This made sense to me. So, for the next few months, I was going back and forth between how I felt for "Mark."

Now, the most confusing thing about "Mark" is that if I'm the only girl around he's flirty and nice and really cool. But if another girl is around, "Mark" is automatically all over them and won't give me the time of day. And now, "Blair" is one of those girls that "Mark" is all over when I'm around even though "Blair" has a boyfriend.

So, I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I do like "Mark" as more than a friend, but with girls like "Blair" around, I'm not sure that I'll ever be able to talk to him alone about these feelings. And even if I did, I'd probably chicken out. But, the next time I try to tell "Mark" about what I'm feeling, I'm not going to chicken out. I'm just anxious to see what "Mark" will have to say.