Fast Foward

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Current mood: intimidated

If I had a remote control like in the movie Click,
I'm pretty sure I'd use it.
Hi, my name is Kathryne
And I'm terrified of the future.

Why is it that I can name about a million flaws about me right off the bat,
But am hesitant to name any good qualities I can find?
Hi, my name is Kathryne
And I have horrible self-confidence.

I don't think I'm cut out for the cutthroat world of Hollywood,
But that's my dream.
Hi, my name is Kathryne
And I want to be an actress.

What do you do when everything seems so out of reach
That even Saturday seems unattainable?
Is that even a word?

And how is it that no matter what,
I can never say anything right?

How is it that I can feel really, really good about my accomplishments in one thing,
And then feel like a complete moron when it comes to something else?

I'm afraid of spreading myself too thin this semester.
Work.
Auditions.
School.
I'm headed for a mental breakdown,
And even though I see it coming,
I don't feel compelled to stop it.

-k