Saturday, October 08, 2005
Current mood: crazy
Hey everyone! Me and Ally just got back from the Newberry-Emerald football game. YEAH ALLY'S TAKING OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No she's not! Screw you!!!! Just kidding, Kat i love you. . . pickle on a stick, yes!!!!!! Okay, we're watching Whose Line...you have to be here. They're doing props on Whose Line. These guys are crazy! We've decided that one day we're going to talk in all questions too-so whenever that day comes...you'll know what we're doing. Noooooo!!!!!! THAT WAS ALLY'S IDEA!!!!! COPIER!!!!! *throws something* All right, once again you had to be here! We were taking this quiz thingie to determine how well you held your anger and each question had an answer like, "Throw your desk against the wall" "Throw your dad against the wall" "Throw your beer at the tv" and the last question: "This quiz sucked (throws computer)" IT WAS FREAKIN' AWESOME!!! (and anyone who knows me knew my honest answers) Well, considering when you got mad at a volleyball game and punched a locker later on in the locker room and crushed your hand...wonder what Ally would've picked? I didn't crush my freakin' hand. . . there was just a locker imprint on it for a week. computer hog!!! (getting angry). . . Don't throw my computer at the wall! I love this show!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!! NOOOO -- don't touch the computer Kat!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO You're really emphasizing your point aren't you? The dyslexic theater performance of "bitty bitty chang chang" Here, you can have the computer back if you're gonna get all you know mad at it. Computers cost a lot, you know Ally. HAAAA-- you think yours would be faster. . . Well now that we've got it going it's a little bit faster. People reading this probably think we're stupid and have no lives. Just to let you know...we have lives. Yes -- the stupid's all you. Hey now. . . Let's start breakin' shit!!!!!!!!!! and then we can go on a boxer raid!!!!!!! Of who, your dad? Hey now, I meant LEAVE THE HOUSE!!! Oh yeah, and unless you're Lily, Sybil, Jesse, Josh, Mac, or Patrick you won't get this (who gives a crap?!?) and think we're just making this stuff up-but it actually happened. TRUE STORY, TRUE STORY!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! SKITTLES, YEAH!!!!! The sad thing is Josh probably has really good aim. And then Jesse ate it. Pooooooor Jesse. And Josh learned nothing about throwing projectiles down people's. . . shirts. . . Projectiles, hmmmm. . . *throws remote control at TV* STUPID COMMERCIALS!!!!!!!!!!!! Just watch out tomorrow-they have all sorts of "projectiles" to be thrown. LoL. No low cut shirts! I hope you learned your lesson. Oh, and watch out with throwing those pen tops too. Dude, I love projectiles. . . hmmm. . . and inanimate objects. . . maybe I should go yell at them!!! what? nothing. . . nothing serious. . . just an urge to go scream at inanimate objects. Just like my urge to go stand out in the rain. . . At least you weren't like Jay and had on a white t-shirt. The crazy bastard. It was pourin rain! HEHE. . . my mind is blank. . . great. . . i'm gonna sing. . . please don't...I've had enough problems this evening-my dad wouldn't let me go to the lighthouse. Boo hoo. . . my goldfish died. . . not really. . . we tried to kill my goldfish but it just won't die. . . mine's so happy...right here in my pocket. *crazy laughter that really doesn't have any funny thought about it* I like pocket goldfish. . . and throwing stuff. . . you need to stop these obsessions with throwing things. I know you don't think you're gonna hurt someone else again...but it could happen. That's the point, Kat. . . I'm a pitcher. . . GOREBELSSOFTBALLROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SALUDA PIZZA HUT ROCKS, TOO!!!!!!!!!! No it's not b/c it doesn't deliver to football games Ally's gettin' sleepy. . . Ally go byebye. . . I guess Kathryne go byebye too. . .
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
girls, boys. . .apples, trees
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Current mood: touched
Girls
are like apples
on trees. The best ones
are at the top of the tree.
The boys dont want to reach
for the good ones because they
are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren't as good,
but easy. So the apples at the top think
something is wrong with them, when in
reality, they're amazing. They just
have to wait for the right boy to
come along, the one who's
brave enough to
climb all
the way
to the top
of the tree.
Current mood: touched
Girls
are like apples
on trees. The best ones
are at the top of the tree.
The boys dont want to reach
for the good ones because they
are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren't as good,
but easy. So the apples at the top think
something is wrong with them, when in
reality, they're amazing. They just
have to wait for the right boy to
come along, the one who's
brave enough to
climb all
the way
to the top
of the tree.
GOOD-BYE 2005! HELLO 2006!
Monday, December 26, 2005
Current mood: giggly
my memories of 2005. some good some bad... but we can never undo the past... only look to the future!
~Springmaid w/ Ally & the rest of my youth group! things not to be repeated... lol
~me boycotting Abercrombie while my sister liked it more and more
~certain guys
~Getting closer to people I never thought I would hang out with
~first time at lighthouse
~Winnie the Pooh!
~crying with Ally that weekend in January
~crying with the rest of my class that one Groundhog's day
~laughing at the new puppy we got we named after Mr. Lucas
~my grandparent's surprise 50th anniversary party
~me, monica, and ally sitting at the back of Boland's class in the pen lab
~our newest volleyball coach
~first volleyball tournament
~going river rafting with my youth group in July
~remember that 6 months before I was at Springmaid with my youth group and someone very close to us had died
~me and my sexi bitch puttin pictures on benji's phone
~learning that you don't always get what you want
~and that you have to hold on to what you have or else it's gone
~crazy nights at jeze-belle's
~me, sarah, and lauren waiting at the movie theater because my mom thought the movie let out an hour after it actually did
~on that note, stealth mode around the theater, omg it's a mime, and i think it's a belt
~mchs football games
~me and jessica sneaking past the cops with the band to the chapin side of the field
~mary beth calling me at home then asking if i was on the mid-carolina side at the football game
~youth kick-off party at the lake
~getting my first cell phone
~getting my permit and driving for the first time
~hanging out with sarah
~renting "The Phantom of the Opera," "The Amytiville Horror," "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants," and "Animal House," and then only watching "The Phantom of the Opera" because me and Sarah got tired
~me and Mary Beth agreeing that myspace is like a drug
~climbing real rocks (not the fake walls that they have at the fair and places like that)
~screaming at the top of my lungs with Mary Beth for no reason at all
~me and Monica arguing over who liked snow more
~complaining to everyone because the school switched my driver's ed and health (in case you haven't heard, i could've gotten my restricted 3 months earlier if they hadn't done that)
~Josh making fun of me because he could drive anytime he wanted and I still only had my permit
~not having enough courage to tell someone that I liked them before it was too late
~new nickname: Katrine (courtesy of Monica)
~sticking up my pinky finger and saying "here's a feather because you're not worth the whole bird"
~the many volleyball games
~meghan randomly bursting into fits of laughter during art making me laugh uncontrollably
~can pizza give you a hangover?
~making plans to go to NY and get an apartment with mary beth
~counting down to the new year with lauren, sarah, carley, mem, scott, and juice
so, good-bye 2005 and all your great memories! now, bring on 2006 so we can start making some more!
Current mood: giggly
my memories of 2005. some good some bad... but we can never undo the past... only look to the future!
~Springmaid w/ Ally & the rest of my youth group! things not to be repeated... lol
~me boycotting Abercrombie while my sister liked it more and more
~certain guys
~Getting closer to people I never thought I would hang out with
~first time at lighthouse
~Winnie the Pooh!
~crying with Ally that weekend in January
~crying with the rest of my class that one Groundhog's day
~laughing at the new puppy we got we named after Mr. Lucas
~my grandparent's surprise 50th anniversary party
~me, monica, and ally sitting at the back of Boland's class in the pen lab
~our newest volleyball coach
~first volleyball tournament
~going river rafting with my youth group in July
~remember that 6 months before I was at Springmaid with my youth group and someone very close to us had died
~me and my sexi bitch puttin pictures on benji's phone
~learning that you don't always get what you want
~and that you have to hold on to what you have or else it's gone
~crazy nights at jeze-belle's
~me, sarah, and lauren waiting at the movie theater because my mom thought the movie let out an hour after it actually did
~on that note, stealth mode around the theater, omg it's a mime, and i think it's a belt
~mchs football games
~me and jessica sneaking past the cops with the band to the chapin side of the field
~mary beth calling me at home then asking if i was on the mid-carolina side at the football game
~youth kick-off party at the lake
~getting my first cell phone
~getting my permit and driving for the first time
~hanging out with sarah
~renting "The Phantom of the Opera," "The Amytiville Horror," "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants," and "Animal House," and then only watching "The Phantom of the Opera" because me and Sarah got tired
~me and Mary Beth agreeing that myspace is like a drug
~climbing real rocks (not the fake walls that they have at the fair and places like that)
~screaming at the top of my lungs with Mary Beth for no reason at all
~me and Monica arguing over who liked snow more
~complaining to everyone because the school switched my driver's ed and health (in case you haven't heard, i could've gotten my restricted 3 months earlier if they hadn't done that)
~Josh making fun of me because he could drive anytime he wanted and I still only had my permit
~not having enough courage to tell someone that I liked them before it was too late
~new nickname: Katrine (courtesy of Monica)
~sticking up my pinky finger and saying "here's a feather because you're not worth the whole bird"
~the many volleyball games
~meghan randomly bursting into fits of laughter during art making me laugh uncontrollably
~can pizza give you a hangover?
~making plans to go to NY and get an apartment with mary beth
~counting down to the new year with lauren, sarah, carley, mem, scott, and juice
so, good-bye 2005 and all your great memories! now, bring on 2006 so we can start making some more!
thinkin...
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Current mood: gloomy
Category: Life
so it's been exactly one year since i heard those words that changed mine and my class' entire lives...
it's still so hard to believe that something like that could've happened to us. i mean, you hear about it happening other places, but never to us. then, something happens and you realize how fragile life is and how quickly it can be taken from you.
this weekend i was the exact same place i was last year. everything seemed to remind me of what happened. there was a church there called red bank methodist and mr. lucas had gone to red bank baptist... both in lexington. then we discovered of another youth group who told us that if they won the money raising contest their adult would dye her hair purple... and mr. lucas had promised us if we won more games this season than last year, we would get to dye his hair pink.
it was so weird not seeing him on the sidelines this season too. i know we won more games this time around, but it seemed like i had more fun last year, not winning a game at all with mr. lucas as our coach.
i was terrified that when i came back my mom would tell me that someone else had been in a car accident, but thankfully she didn't, so that's good.
so, now that i've had my whole little reminisence of mr. lucas, i'm gonna go.
much love everyone,
Kathryne
in memory of mr. lucas
November 16, 1980 - January 29, 2005
Current mood: gloomy
Category: Life
so it's been exactly one year since i heard those words that changed mine and my class' entire lives...
it's still so hard to believe that something like that could've happened to us. i mean, you hear about it happening other places, but never to us. then, something happens and you realize how fragile life is and how quickly it can be taken from you.
this weekend i was the exact same place i was last year. everything seemed to remind me of what happened. there was a church there called red bank methodist and mr. lucas had gone to red bank baptist... both in lexington. then we discovered of another youth group who told us that if they won the money raising contest their adult would dye her hair purple... and mr. lucas had promised us if we won more games this season than last year, we would get to dye his hair pink.
it was so weird not seeing him on the sidelines this season too. i know we won more games this time around, but it seemed like i had more fun last year, not winning a game at all with mr. lucas as our coach.
i was terrified that when i came back my mom would tell me that someone else had been in a car accident, but thankfully she didn't, so that's good.
so, now that i've had my whole little reminisence of mr. lucas, i'm gonna go.
much love everyone,
Kathryne
in memory of mr. lucas
November 16, 1980 - January 29, 2005
springmaid
Friday, February 03, 2006
Current mood: amused
Category: Friends
it's been one full week and guess what? i totally forgot to put a blog up here about springmaid!! crazy, i know!! how can it be?? haha. anyways, we had so much fun... much to my surprise. i thought since it was only gonna be me and sybil from last year going, that we'd just do what we absolutely had to... you know, don't break the rules or anything. haha, yeah right!! like we can go there without breaking a rule!! lol. yeah, be in our rooms at 11? you must be kidding... and i'm pretty sure soccer in the yard thingie after 11 is breaking that... if that isn't, sneaking past some random guys rooms and then getting caught by them definately is!! lol. anyway, if any of you guys from last year (and i mean jesse who wouldn't go because jake did and josh who wouldn't go because jesse and marlowe and everybody else wouldn't go and mac not going wait, why didn't mac go? anyway, and patrick having to take the sat... yeah, like that's gonna help you) anyways, you guys really missed out... but i guess if you'd came then we wouldn't have met my sexy or sybils sexy... we would've met mary alex's sexy because he's just cool like that and was on stage... so anyways that was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun and we all definately have to go back next year... you know who i'm talking to!! lol!! so many inside jokes are coming away from that trip. sarah, i don't think we were supposed to talk to justin that weekend!! lol!! sybil... just crazyness... nuff said. mary alex, i think it's laffy taffy time! lol!! i'll give you a quarter if you play a country song!! jake schooled all of them in soccer!! and he ate his jello... and it was good!! haha!! how tall are you?? mary alex called his room on the first try... you are so psychic!! haha... anyways, for those of you that didn't go, you're probably like what? but those of you that did are laughing, come on, i know you are!! lol!! anywho, this thing's long enough so i'm gonna go!! much love everyone, Kathryne :)
Current mood: amused
Category: Friends
it's been one full week and guess what? i totally forgot to put a blog up here about springmaid!! crazy, i know!! how can it be?? haha. anyways, we had so much fun... much to my surprise. i thought since it was only gonna be me and sybil from last year going, that we'd just do what we absolutely had to... you know, don't break the rules or anything. haha, yeah right!! like we can go there without breaking a rule!! lol. yeah, be in our rooms at 11? you must be kidding... and i'm pretty sure soccer in the yard thingie after 11 is breaking that... if that isn't, sneaking past some random guys rooms and then getting caught by them definately is!! lol. anyway, if any of you guys from last year (and i mean jesse who wouldn't go because jake did and josh who wouldn't go because jesse and marlowe and everybody else wouldn't go and mac not going wait, why didn't mac go? anyway, and patrick having to take the sat... yeah, like that's gonna help you) anyways, you guys really missed out... but i guess if you'd came then we wouldn't have met my sexy or sybils sexy... we would've met mary alex's sexy because he's just cool like that and was on stage... so anyways that was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun and we all definately have to go back next year... you know who i'm talking to!! lol!! so many inside jokes are coming away from that trip. sarah, i don't think we were supposed to talk to justin that weekend!! lol!! sybil... just crazyness... nuff said. mary alex, i think it's laffy taffy time! lol!! i'll give you a quarter if you play a country song!! jake schooled all of them in soccer!! and he ate his jello... and it was good!! haha!! how tall are you?? mary alex called his room on the first try... you are so psychic!! haha... anyways, for those of you that didn't go, you're probably like what? but those of you that did are laughing, come on, i know you are!! lol!! anywho, this thing's long enough so i'm gonna go!! much love everyone, Kathryne :)
so, uhh... yeah...
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Friends
So, there's this guy... we'll call him "Mark." Well, "Mark" has been my best friend since, well, forever. And one day, "Mark" decides to tell me that he's thought of me as more than a friend before but after I told him that I'd never thought of him that way, "Mark" said something like, "Well, I don't think of you in that way any more." So, during a sport last year that I partook in, I told this girl, we'll call her "Blair" about the conversation with "Mark." "Blair" said, " 'Mark' was probably trying to figure out if you liked him or not, that's why he asked your opinion before saying how he felt now." This made sense to me. So, for the next few months, I was going back and forth between how I felt for "Mark."
Now, the most confusing thing about "Mark" is that if I'm the only girl around he's flirty and nice and really cool. But if another girl is around, "Mark" is automatically all over them and won't give me the time of day. And now, "Blair" is one of those girls that "Mark" is all over when I'm around even though "Blair" has a boyfriend.
So, I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I do like "Mark" as more than a friend, but with girls like "Blair" around, I'm not sure that I'll ever be able to talk to him alone about these feelings. And even if I did, I'd probably chicken out. But, the next time I try to tell "Mark" about what I'm feeling, I'm not going to chicken out. I'm just anxious to see what "Mark" will have to say.
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Friends
So, there's this guy... we'll call him "Mark." Well, "Mark" has been my best friend since, well, forever. And one day, "Mark" decides to tell me that he's thought of me as more than a friend before but after I told him that I'd never thought of him that way, "Mark" said something like, "Well, I don't think of you in that way any more." So, during a sport last year that I partook in, I told this girl, we'll call her "Blair" about the conversation with "Mark." "Blair" said, " 'Mark' was probably trying to figure out if you liked him or not, that's why he asked your opinion before saying how he felt now." This made sense to me. So, for the next few months, I was going back and forth between how I felt for "Mark."
Now, the most confusing thing about "Mark" is that if I'm the only girl around he's flirty and nice and really cool. But if another girl is around, "Mark" is automatically all over them and won't give me the time of day. And now, "Blair" is one of those girls that "Mark" is all over when I'm around even though "Blair" has a boyfriend.
So, I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I do like "Mark" as more than a friend, but with girls like "Blair" around, I'm not sure that I'll ever be able to talk to him alone about these feelings. And even if I did, I'd probably chicken out. But, the next time I try to tell "Mark" about what I'm feeling, I'm not going to chicken out. I'm just anxious to see what "Mark" will have to say.
the L word
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Current mood: curious
Category: Romance and Relationships
Does anybody notice how now-a-days it seems like the phrase "I love you" gets said more and more? It used to be that you said that and really meant it... it was a big thing. Now it's just like one of those little things you say like "See ya!" or "Call me" or something of that nature. And then there are these couples who have been dating for less than two months and you see in their profiles "I love you so-and-so... you are my everything... i'll love you forever" or something along those lines. HELLO!! Wake up call! That's not love... that's like and just because you're going out for 2 months you think you're automatically in love? And now, it seems like 2 months is a long time for a relationship... what about the people who have been in one for years? That's love. Not this little we're going out now so we have to be in love.
Okay, that rant's over. Anyway... just so everyone knows, if I say "I love you" I mean it. You have a special place in my heart and I have no idea what I'd do without you. So, to all my true friends (and you know who you are) I love you guys so much.
:),
**Kathryne**
Current mood: curious
Category: Romance and Relationships
Does anybody notice how now-a-days it seems like the phrase "I love you" gets said more and more? It used to be that you said that and really meant it... it was a big thing. Now it's just like one of those little things you say like "See ya!" or "Call me" or something of that nature. And then there are these couples who have been dating for less than two months and you see in their profiles "I love you so-and-so... you are my everything... i'll love you forever" or something along those lines. HELLO!! Wake up call! That's not love... that's like and just because you're going out for 2 months you think you're automatically in love? And now, it seems like 2 months is a long time for a relationship... what about the people who have been in one for years? That's love. Not this little we're going out now so we have to be in love.
Okay, that rant's over. Anyway... just so everyone knows, if I say "I love you" I mean it. You have a special place in my heart and I have no idea what I'd do without you. So, to all my true friends (and you know who you are) I love you guys so much.
:),
**Kathryne**
Dazed and Confused
Friday, March 31, 2006
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry
Dazed and confused
I'm living in a world
Where things aren't as they seem
And I want to break free
Doing things I have to,
Not saying what I feel.
And afraid to put my heart out there
Just to get it shoved back in my face.
I want to get away
To see everything I can
Feel the wind in my hair
Looking over clear blue waters.
I want to break away.
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry
Dazed and confused
I'm living in a world
Where things aren't as they seem
And I want to break free
Doing things I have to,
Not saying what I feel.
And afraid to put my heart out there
Just to get it shoved back in my face.
I want to get away
To see everything I can
Feel the wind in my hair
Looking over clear blue waters.
I want to break away.
And love was you
Friday, March 31, 2006
Current mood: touched
Category: Writing and Poetry
Onto the sea
I sailed my boat
And prayed that it
Would stay afloat
From dawn til dusk
From dusk til dawn
In search of love
I drifted on
What happened then
I don't recall
I think it was
A sudden squall
For when I awoke
I thought I died
At the sight of an angel
At my side
But lucky for me
That was not true
For I found love
And love was you.
Current mood: touched
Category: Writing and Poetry
Onto the sea
I sailed my boat
And prayed that it
Would stay afloat
From dawn til dusk
From dusk til dawn
In search of love
I drifted on
What happened then
I don't recall
I think it was
A sudden squall
For when I awoke
I thought I died
At the sight of an angel
At my side
But lucky for me
That was not true
For I found love
And love was you.
Some things i've learned
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Current mood: content
Category: Life
Ok, thanks to a couple friends and some people I never knew could help me, I've learned a couple things:
One is NEVER EVER listen to someone who's trying to put me down or insult me. Very little is it ever true and it's just a load of bullshit. And if what they are saying is keeping me from doing something I want to do and something that makes me happy, I'm just giving them my happiness and they aren't worth that.
Two is that life is way way way too short to be anything but happy. If I'm worried about what's cool and what isn't, then I'm not being true to myself and that's just a wasted life. If I'm going to be put on this earth, I'm going to do something worth-while and do what I want to do. And if anyone tries to tell me I shouldn't, or that I can't do it, then I'm just going to work harder to prove them wrong.
Three is that people do make mistakes. I make mistakes. It's only human. And the only way to let go of those mistakes is to learn from them and learn to forgive myself and the people around me. If I don't, then I'll just hold a grudge and that's not the way to go. That moment spent being mad at someone else is a moment of being happy and laughing that I'm never going to get back.
And finally, is that God is the most important thing in my life. Not some crush that I'm going to forget about 10 years from now and not the things I have or what I look like or anything else. I know now that we're all put on this earth for a purpose and only God knows what that purpose is. Only He knows what the future holds. Only He knows who will be here today and gone tomorrow. Only He knows what crazy twists and turns I will go down on the road of life. I can only hope that I learn to make the right choices and that I'll be able to take that road and become a person I'll be proud to call me.
Current mood: content
Category: Life
Ok, thanks to a couple friends and some people I never knew could help me, I've learned a couple things:
One is NEVER EVER listen to someone who's trying to put me down or insult me. Very little is it ever true and it's just a load of bullshit. And if what they are saying is keeping me from doing something I want to do and something that makes me happy, I'm just giving them my happiness and they aren't worth that.
Two is that life is way way way too short to be anything but happy. If I'm worried about what's cool and what isn't, then I'm not being true to myself and that's just a wasted life. If I'm going to be put on this earth, I'm going to do something worth-while and do what I want to do. And if anyone tries to tell me I shouldn't, or that I can't do it, then I'm just going to work harder to prove them wrong.
Three is that people do make mistakes. I make mistakes. It's only human. And the only way to let go of those mistakes is to learn from them and learn to forgive myself and the people around me. If I don't, then I'll just hold a grudge and that's not the way to go. That moment spent being mad at someone else is a moment of being happy and laughing that I'm never going to get back.
And finally, is that God is the most important thing in my life. Not some crush that I'm going to forget about 10 years from now and not the things I have or what I look like or anything else. I know now that we're all put on this earth for a purpose and only God knows what that purpose is. Only He knows what the future holds. Only He knows who will be here today and gone tomorrow. Only He knows what crazy twists and turns I will go down on the road of life. I can only hope that I learn to make the right choices and that I'll be able to take that road and become a person I'll be proud to call me.
quotes
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Current mood: sick
Category: Life
A Carolina girl is a girl who knows full and well that she can open a door for herself but prefers for the gentleman to do it because it demonstrates a sense of respect. After all, every girl wants to be treated like a princess. We know how to make sweet tea and grits while telling you everything about any football team in the SEC. We pick our battles and fight with the heart of a pitbull while still maintaining grace and elegance. Our mystique is that of a soft-spoken, mild-mannered southern belle who could direct an army, loves her mama and will always be daddy's little girl.
I was standing in the park wondering why frisbees get closer as you watch them and then it hit me.
Laugh your heart out, dance in the rain, cherish the memories, ignore the pain, live and love, forgive and forget because remember you only have one life to live!
She didn't know it couldn't be done so she went ahead and did it. - Bridget O'Donnell
It is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness. -Chinese Proverb
Life is like a waterslide: choose a slied and you're in it till the end. Pick the slide you're going to ride based on the pool you want to land in.
When it seems that the door of opportunity is shut tight, look for a window to crawl through.
It's kind of fun to do the impossible. -Walt Disney
All that is gold does not glitter, not all who wander are lost.
Laughter is to life what shock absorbers are to cars. It won't take the potholes out of the road, but it sure makes the ride smoother. -Barbara Johnson
Excuse me for being attractive. -Hillary, "Fresh Prince"
A woman's heart is an ocean of secrets. -Rose, "Titanic"
Rose: Well I'm fine. I'll be fine. Really.
Jack: Really? I don't think so. They have got you trapped, Rose. And you're gonna die if you don't break free. Maybe not right away because you're strong but sooner or later, that fire that I love about you, Rose, that fire's gonna burn out.
Rose: It's not up to you to save me, Jack.
Jack: You're right. Only you can do that. -"Titanic"
[ParTy] HaRD,
RoCk N RoLL,
We'rE ThE ClAsS
U CaN'T [CoNtRoL]
I'Ve sAiD It OncE,
AnD I'LL sAy iT AgaIn...
No MaTter wHaT,
WE'll AlWaYs bE [FrIenDs]
aLL wHo [ReMemBeR] u$,
RemEmbER Us WeLL,
So gO To ClaSs,
AnD sTaY oUt LaTe,
CuZ wE'rE tHe CLasS oF 2008! *~
[PaRTy] HaRDy
HaVe a BLaST
dAncE ArOUnd
SHaKe THaT [a$$]
rEmEmbEr thE gUYs
ReMeMBeR youR FRieNDS
rEmEmbEr thE gOOd [tImEs]
THaT WiLL [NeVeR] eND
wE'rE thE bEst
GeT THaT STRaiGHT
[DaMN] RiGHT
wE'rE THe clAss oF 2008!! *~
Girls who behave rarely make history. -Marilyn Monroe
Never Let Go -CCL
We were the girls who took on the world and didn't worry about the past, we laughed and cried and said some goodbyes, but we lived each day like it was our last. We partied hard, we kissed slow, we laughed out loud as we stole the show, looking back on my life there's nothing I regret; I still live for the nights I can't remember and the friends I'll never forget.
Through mascara stained eyes, I see the world for what it truly is.
When life rains on your parade, bust out the slip 'n slide.
Current mood: sick
Category: Life
A Carolina girl is a girl who knows full and well that she can open a door for herself but prefers for the gentleman to do it because it demonstrates a sense of respect. After all, every girl wants to be treated like a princess. We know how to make sweet tea and grits while telling you everything about any football team in the SEC. We pick our battles and fight with the heart of a pitbull while still maintaining grace and elegance. Our mystique is that of a soft-spoken, mild-mannered southern belle who could direct an army, loves her mama and will always be daddy's little girl.
I was standing in the park wondering why frisbees get closer as you watch them and then it hit me.
Laugh your heart out, dance in the rain, cherish the memories, ignore the pain, live and love, forgive and forget because remember you only have one life to live!
She didn't know it couldn't be done so she went ahead and did it. - Bridget O'Donnell
It is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness. -Chinese Proverb
Life is like a waterslide: choose a slied and you're in it till the end. Pick the slide you're going to ride based on the pool you want to land in.
When it seems that the door of opportunity is shut tight, look for a window to crawl through.
It's kind of fun to do the impossible. -Walt Disney
All that is gold does not glitter, not all who wander are lost.
Laughter is to life what shock absorbers are to cars. It won't take the potholes out of the road, but it sure makes the ride smoother. -Barbara Johnson
Excuse me for being attractive. -Hillary, "Fresh Prince"
A woman's heart is an ocean of secrets. -Rose, "Titanic"
Rose: Well I'm fine. I'll be fine. Really.
Jack: Really? I don't think so. They have got you trapped, Rose. And you're gonna die if you don't break free. Maybe not right away because you're strong but sooner or later, that fire that I love about you, Rose, that fire's gonna burn out.
Rose: It's not up to you to save me, Jack.
Jack: You're right. Only you can do that. -"Titanic"
[ParTy] HaRD,
RoCk N RoLL,
We'rE ThE ClAsS
U CaN'T [CoNtRoL]
I'Ve sAiD It OncE,
AnD I'LL sAy iT AgaIn...
No MaTter wHaT,
WE'll AlWaYs bE [FrIenDs]
aLL wHo [ReMemBeR] u$,
RemEmbER Us WeLL,
So gO To ClaSs,
AnD sTaY oUt LaTe,
CuZ wE'rE tHe CLasS oF 2008! *~
[PaRTy] HaRDy
HaVe a BLaST
dAncE ArOUnd
SHaKe THaT [a$$]
rEmEmbEr thE gUYs
ReMeMBeR youR FRieNDS
rEmEmbEr thE gOOd [tImEs]
THaT WiLL [NeVeR] eND
wE'rE thE bEst
GeT THaT STRaiGHT
[DaMN] RiGHT
wE'rE THe clAss oF 2008!! *~
Girls who behave rarely make history. -Marilyn Monroe
Never Let Go -CCL
We were the girls who took on the world and didn't worry about the past, we laughed and cried and said some goodbyes, but we lived each day like it was our last. We partied hard, we kissed slow, we laughed out loud as we stole the show, looking back on my life there's nothing I regret; I still live for the nights I can't remember and the friends I'll never forget.
Through mascara stained eyes, I see the world for what it truly is.
When life rains on your parade, bust out the slip 'n slide.
Conversation worth reading! lol
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Current mood: crazy
Category: Friends
jlcheers4u: hey
kateybelle15: hey
jlcheers4u: was up dawggg
kateybelle15: nm... just got done packing for the beach this weekend!!
kateybelle15: was up wit u?
jlcheers4u: u dork ur goin to the beach...
jlcheers4u: *mad*...
kateybelle15: *sticks tongue out and performs mock laughing*
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: u big meanie
kateybelle15: hahahahaha
jlcheers4u: all day i have been sayin man i wish i could go to the beach...man i wish i could go to the beach...
kateybelle15: man... i wish i could go to the beach... oh, wait! i am! lol
jlcheers4u: MAN I WISH I COULD GO TO THE FREAKIN BECH!!!!...
kateybelle15: the bech? what's the bech?
jlcheers4u: *CRYS*
jlcheers4u: beach
kateybelle15: i kno
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: u knew wat i meant
jlcheers4u: :-(
kateybelle15: maybe i did, maybe i didn't
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: ur mean
kateybelle15: cheer up, janna... you'll go to the beach again one day
kateybelle15: I AM NOT MEAN!!
jlcheers4u: o i mite be goin to the bahamas this summer...GO ME
kateybelle15: and your complaining about not going to the beach this weekend.... bahamas... i wanna go to the bahamas
jlcheers4u: ha ha ha
jlcheers4u: maybe...
jlcheers4u: only a maybe...i wanna go soooo badly man
kateybelle15: haha... maybe just a long stretch of the word no... which makes it torture!!
kateybelle15: janna's being tortured!!
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: well it was moms idea
kateybelle15: janna's being tortured by her mom!
jlcheers4u: so maybe we will go i sure hope so that would be awsome there are amazingly hot guys there 2 that is such a ...lol
kateybelle15: well... there's this girl in my pre-cal class who went on a cruise to the bahamas and apparently and old ugly nasty guy hit on her
kateybelle15: haha... janna's gonna get hit on by an old guy!
jlcheers4u: no
jlcheers4u: hell no
jlcheers4u: there some old guy at the door now that freaks me out but im ignoring him as far as he know inm in the shower
kateybelle15: haha... yes you are and you're gonna run back to your hotel room screaming and never come out until it's time to leave... that way, you wouldn't enjoy the bahamas like i'm gonna enjoy the beach
jlcheers4u: w/e
jlcheers4u: theres old crusty guys at the beach too
jlcheers4u: wat beach?
kateybelle15: myrtle
kateybelle15: but i will be in a group... and... eww... i just remembered... last year i saw this old guy in a speedo there! it was nasty!!
jlcheers4u: eww...the crustiest...
kateybelle15: ur weird
jlcheers4u: lol
kateybelle15: and my friend and i were filming walking to the beach and i was talking and just stop mid-sentence and go "Ew! Old guy in a speedo! That's sick."
jlcheers4u: mu ah ha ha ha ha
kateybelle15: shut up! if you were there, you would've been like, oh yeah... what a hottie and be checkin him out all day
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: hell yea
kateybelle15: your scared of the old guys hitting on you in the bahamas but you are agreeing to hit on an old guy in a speedo in myrtle beach?
jlcheers4u: no i was kidding lol
kateybelle15: suuuuurrrrrreeeeeeeeee........
kateybelle15: lolo
kateybelle15: *lol
jlcheers4u: w/e
jlcheers4u: lol
kateybelle15: haha
kateybelle15: (just to be different from lol)
jlcheers4u: he he (just to be different from ha ha)
kateybelle15: heehee (just to be different from he he
kateybelle15: )
jlcheers4u: ho ho (just to be diferent from whore whore)
kateybelle15: slut slut (just to be different from ho ho)
jlcheers4u: well i g2g
jlcheers4u: bubye
kateybelle15: bye bye
jlcheers4u: lol later ho ho
kateybelle15: later slut slut
kateybelle15: lo
kateybelle15: *lol
kateybelle15: p.s. i'm going to the beach
jlcheers4u is away at 7:16:54 PM.
Current mood: crazy
Category: Friends
jlcheers4u: hey
kateybelle15: hey
jlcheers4u: was up dawggg
kateybelle15: nm... just got done packing for the beach this weekend!!
kateybelle15: was up wit u?
jlcheers4u: u dork ur goin to the beach...
jlcheers4u: *mad*...
kateybelle15: *sticks tongue out and performs mock laughing*
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: u big meanie
kateybelle15: hahahahaha
jlcheers4u: all day i have been sayin man i wish i could go to the beach...man i wish i could go to the beach...
kateybelle15: man... i wish i could go to the beach... oh, wait! i am! lol
jlcheers4u: MAN I WISH I COULD GO TO THE FREAKIN BECH!!!!...
kateybelle15: the bech? what's the bech?
jlcheers4u: *CRYS*
jlcheers4u: beach
kateybelle15: i kno
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: u knew wat i meant
jlcheers4u: :-(
kateybelle15: maybe i did, maybe i didn't
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: ur mean
kateybelle15: cheer up, janna... you'll go to the beach again one day
kateybelle15: I AM NOT MEAN!!
jlcheers4u: o i mite be goin to the bahamas this summer...GO ME
kateybelle15: and your complaining about not going to the beach this weekend.... bahamas... i wanna go to the bahamas
jlcheers4u: ha ha ha
jlcheers4u: maybe...
jlcheers4u: only a maybe...i wanna go soooo badly man
kateybelle15: haha... maybe just a long stretch of the word no... which makes it torture!!
kateybelle15: janna's being tortured!!
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: well it was moms idea
kateybelle15: janna's being tortured by her mom!
jlcheers4u: so maybe we will go i sure hope so that would be awsome there are amazingly hot guys there 2 that is such a ...lol
kateybelle15: well... there's this girl in my pre-cal class who went on a cruise to the bahamas and apparently and old ugly nasty guy hit on her
kateybelle15: haha... janna's gonna get hit on by an old guy!
jlcheers4u: no
jlcheers4u: hell no
jlcheers4u: there some old guy at the door now that freaks me out but im ignoring him as far as he know inm in the shower
kateybelle15: haha... yes you are and you're gonna run back to your hotel room screaming and never come out until it's time to leave... that way, you wouldn't enjoy the bahamas like i'm gonna enjoy the beach
jlcheers4u: w/e
jlcheers4u: theres old crusty guys at the beach too
jlcheers4u: wat beach?
kateybelle15: myrtle
kateybelle15: but i will be in a group... and... eww... i just remembered... last year i saw this old guy in a speedo there! it was nasty!!
jlcheers4u: eww...the crustiest...
kateybelle15: ur weird
jlcheers4u: lol
kateybelle15: and my friend and i were filming walking to the beach and i was talking and just stop mid-sentence and go "Ew! Old guy in a speedo! That's sick."
jlcheers4u: mu ah ha ha ha ha
kateybelle15: shut up! if you were there, you would've been like, oh yeah... what a hottie and be checkin him out all day
kateybelle15: lol
jlcheers4u: hell yea
kateybelle15: your scared of the old guys hitting on you in the bahamas but you are agreeing to hit on an old guy in a speedo in myrtle beach?
jlcheers4u: no i was kidding lol
kateybelle15: suuuuurrrrrreeeeeeeeee........
kateybelle15: lolo
kateybelle15: *lol
jlcheers4u: w/e
jlcheers4u: lol
kateybelle15: haha
kateybelle15: (just to be different from lol)
jlcheers4u: he he (just to be different from ha ha)
kateybelle15: heehee (just to be different from he he
kateybelle15: )
jlcheers4u: ho ho (just to be diferent from whore whore)
kateybelle15: slut slut (just to be different from ho ho)
jlcheers4u: well i g2g
jlcheers4u: bubye
kateybelle15: bye bye
jlcheers4u: lol later ho ho
kateybelle15: later slut slut
kateybelle15: lo
kateybelle15: *lol
kateybelle15: p.s. i'm going to the beach
jlcheers4u is away at 7:16:54 PM.
I kinda liked this one...
Monday, April 24, 2006
Current mood: blah
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Are you a slot machine, God, my lever to pull for sweet treats and happy days? Do I trust you? Do I know you at all? You're a stranger, a mysterious stranger, whom I sometimes fear and at other times loathe. At times I am thankful, and I adore you like a wide-eyed child; but sometimes I seem to love the gift more than the giver. As soon as the gift is old or used up, I fall into confusion and mistrust; and instead of you, I seek material gain and worldly comfort. Even though I go to church and sing songs about my life being yours, I am obsessed with myself. Hardly a minute passes when I don't complain or worry about my life. How can I profess to believe what my actions deny? And yet I sincerely want all that you haev for me - the joy and the pain of carrying your cross. Pray Mark 9:24 (NIV): "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!" Amen.
-Meditation Moment: Ephesians 4:11-16, DevoZine
Current mood: blah
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Are you a slot machine, God, my lever to pull for sweet treats and happy days? Do I trust you? Do I know you at all? You're a stranger, a mysterious stranger, whom I sometimes fear and at other times loathe. At times I am thankful, and I adore you like a wide-eyed child; but sometimes I seem to love the gift more than the giver. As soon as the gift is old or used up, I fall into confusion and mistrust; and instead of you, I seek material gain and worldly comfort. Even though I go to church and sing songs about my life being yours, I am obsessed with myself. Hardly a minute passes when I don't complain or worry about my life. How can I profess to believe what my actions deny? And yet I sincerely want all that you haev for me - the joy and the pain of carrying your cross. Pray Mark 9:24 (NIV): "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!" Amen.
-Meditation Moment: Ephesians 4:11-16, DevoZine
Appearances lie
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Current mood: thoughtful
Category: Writing and Poetry
Appearances lie
First impressions decieve
You can't always trust
At what you first believe
Inside is much more
More hurt and pain
More laughs and smiles
The sunshine and rain
Not all wounds show
Hearts do not always heal
The mask you see
May not always be real
We smile when we're sad
And hide what is true
Until the mask falls off
And truth shines through
The vulnerability of us
The worst side
Sometimes it's good to show
Everything you want to hide. . .
Current mood: thoughtful
Category: Writing and Poetry
Appearances lie
First impressions decieve
You can't always trust
At what you first believe
Inside is much more
More hurt and pain
More laughs and smiles
The sunshine and rain
Not all wounds show
Hearts do not always heal
The mask you see
May not always be real
We smile when we're sad
And hide what is true
Until the mask falls off
And truth shines through
The vulnerability of us
The worst side
Sometimes it's good to show
Everything you want to hide. . .
That stupid feeling...
Friday, June 02, 2006
Current mood: apathetic
I'm starting to feel that stupid feeling I feel at the beginning of every summer. You Know how it seems liKe everywhere people are talKing about summer romances/flings? Well, it always seems much bigger to me. LiKe, "in your face" Kinda big. I guess the reason it feels that way is because I've never experienced that. I mean liKe, holding hands, playing around, having someone you know is always gonna be there for you and being able to depend on them.
Everyone tells me "You're better off without a guy" and "They're stupid" or "just a big waste of your time" but I'd rather learn that for myself, you Know? And, if it's so terrible then how come all my friends who are in a relationship seem to be really happy? And then, liKe, if I'm somewhere where it seems like everyone else has their "significant other" there, I feel liKe I'm just there as a "tag-along" or something liKe that.
I don't Know. It just seems like the people I do talK to about it will asK me liKe, "Why don't you have a boyfriend?" as if a boyfriend's liKe an ipod or something that you can just picK up at a store or a mall. And then I've also been asKed, "Have you been trying to get a boyfriend?" which just maKes it even worse. How do you try to get a boyfriend? And when people asK me this it maKes me feel liKe there's something wrong with me. LiKe, you're a certain age in a certain grade so you have to have a boyfriend. Whatever. Does anyone have any advice?
Current mood: apathetic
I'm starting to feel that stupid feeling I feel at the beginning of every summer. You Know how it seems liKe everywhere people are talKing about summer romances/flings? Well, it always seems much bigger to me. LiKe, "in your face" Kinda big. I guess the reason it feels that way is because I've never experienced that. I mean liKe, holding hands, playing around, having someone you know is always gonna be there for you and being able to depend on them.
Everyone tells me "You're better off without a guy" and "They're stupid" or "just a big waste of your time" but I'd rather learn that for myself, you Know? And, if it's so terrible then how come all my friends who are in a relationship seem to be really happy? And then, liKe, if I'm somewhere where it seems like everyone else has their "significant other" there, I feel liKe I'm just there as a "tag-along" or something liKe that.
I don't Know. It just seems like the people I do talK to about it will asK me liKe, "Why don't you have a boyfriend?" as if a boyfriend's liKe an ipod or something that you can just picK up at a store or a mall. And then I've also been asKed, "Have you been trying to get a boyfriend?" which just maKes it even worse. How do you try to get a boyfriend? And when people asK me this it maKes me feel liKe there's something wrong with me. LiKe, you're a certain age in a certain grade so you have to have a boyfriend. Whatever. Does anyone have any advice?
wrong. . .on so many levels. . .
Monday, June 05, 2006
Current mood: infuriated
"He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog.
You are his life, his love, his leader.
He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart.
You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion."
--Unknown
OK, I was looKing around on myspace, bored, and came across this girl's blog that was a copy of a bulliten. Apparently, in California, they are trying to pass a law to "put to sleep" (in other words, Kill) any form of pit bull because of the people forcing them to fight. Even the ones who are peaceful. They are a good dog, just with a bad rep. And if this law gets passed in California, it could start getting passed in other states. The slogan for the people protesting this law is called: "Punish the deed not the breed." A fitting slogan. If these dogs are given a second chance, they can prove that just because they are pit bulls doesn't mean they are violent by nature. People are causing them to be violent and now people are punishing them for the very thing that some people taught them. Tell me how this is fair or right? A ton of dogs that were being forced to fight have been given second chances. They were healed, and re-trained and are now leading normal-dog lives. Some pit bulls are started out from birth being trained to help special needs children. They are the same as any other breed of dog. Had people started fighting labs or retrievers the law would've been to kill them instead. But look at how wonderful a pet they can be! Would you have wanted them Killed? Here are some pictures from that blog that show that pit bulls are more than just crazed fighting machines:
Current mood: infuriated
"He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog.
You are his life, his love, his leader.
He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart.
You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion."
--Unknown
OK, I was looKing around on myspace, bored, and came across this girl's blog that was a copy of a bulliten. Apparently, in California, they are trying to pass a law to "put to sleep" (in other words, Kill) any form of pit bull because of the people forcing them to fight. Even the ones who are peaceful. They are a good dog, just with a bad rep. And if this law gets passed in California, it could start getting passed in other states. The slogan for the people protesting this law is called: "Punish the deed not the breed." A fitting slogan. If these dogs are given a second chance, they can prove that just because they are pit bulls doesn't mean they are violent by nature. People are causing them to be violent and now people are punishing them for the very thing that some people taught them. Tell me how this is fair or right? A ton of dogs that were being forced to fight have been given second chances. They were healed, and re-trained and are now leading normal-dog lives. Some pit bulls are started out from birth being trained to help special needs children. They are the same as any other breed of dog. Had people started fighting labs or retrievers the law would've been to kill them instead. But look at how wonderful a pet they can be! Would you have wanted them Killed? Here are some pictures from that blog that show that pit bulls are more than just crazed fighting machines:
wrong. . .on so many levels. . .
pictures continued
I almost cried after seeing this. This has got to stop. Here's the website for the organization against this: www.sorryagain.com. These are amazing creatures who don't deserve to be wiped off this planet because of cruel idiots (that's what they are) who decided to hurt them and use them to earn a quicK bucK.
I almost cried after seeing this. This has got to stop. Here's the website for the organization against this: www.sorryagain.com. These are amazing creatures who don't deserve to be wiped off this planet because of cruel idiots (that's what they are) who decided to hurt them and use them to earn a quicK bucK.
how I'm feeling right now. . .
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Current mood: hungry
Category: Life
So this song pretty much summarizes what I'm feeling right now. . .
I Won't Leave You Lonely
Shania Twain
Together - midnight in summer
The air's so much warmer
Falling in love under starlight
Holding on so tight - together
I won't leave you lonely tonight
I want you to hold me all night
It's gonna be alright
I won't leave you lonely tonight
Imagine - the air filled with jasmine
The breeze blows with passion
You and me dance with desire
The moon is on fire - imagine
I won't leave you lonely tonight
I want you to hold me all night
It's gonna be alright
I won't leave you lonely tonight
Je t'aime beaucoup mon amour
You are the one I adore
I won't leave you lonely tonight
I want you to hold me all night
It's gonna be alright
No you won't be lonely tonight
Na-na-na. . .
Te amo mucho mi amor
You are the one I adore
Te amo
Current mood: hungry
Category: Life
So this song pretty much summarizes what I'm feeling right now. . .
I Won't Leave You Lonely
Shania Twain
Together - midnight in summer
The air's so much warmer
Falling in love under starlight
Holding on so tight - together
I won't leave you lonely tonight
I want you to hold me all night
It's gonna be alright
I won't leave you lonely tonight
Imagine - the air filled with jasmine
The breeze blows with passion
You and me dance with desire
The moon is on fire - imagine
I won't leave you lonely tonight
I want you to hold me all night
It's gonna be alright
I won't leave you lonely tonight
Je t'aime beaucoup mon amour
You are the one I adore
I won't leave you lonely tonight
I want you to hold me all night
It's gonna be alright
No you won't be lonely tonight
Na-na-na. . .
Te amo mucho mi amor
You are the one I adore
Te amo
in loving memory. . .
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Current mood: depressed
If heaven was an hour
It would be twighlight
When the fireflies start their dancin on the lawn
And supper's on the stove
And momma's laughin'
And everybody's worKin' day is done
If heaven was a town
It would be my town
Oh, on a summer day in 1985
And everything I wanted was out there waitin'
And everyone I loved was still alive
Don't cry a tear for me now baby
There comes a time
We all must say goodbye
And if that's what heaven's made of
You know I - I ain't afraid to die
If heaven was a pie it would be cherry
So cool and sweet and heavy on the top
And just one bite could satisfy your hunger
And there'd always be enough for everyone
If heaven was a train it sure would be a fast one
That could taKe this weary traveler round the bend
If heaven was a tear, it'd be my last one
And you'd be in my arms again
Don't cry a tear for me now baby
There comes a time
We all must say goodbye
And if that's what heaven's made of
You know I - I ain't afraid to die
Yeah if that's what heaven's made of
You know I. . .
I ain't afraid. . .
To die. . .
George "Pop-Pop" Miller - June 17, 2006
Current mood: depressed
If heaven was an hour
It would be twighlight
When the fireflies start their dancin on the lawn
And supper's on the stove
And momma's laughin'
And everybody's worKin' day is done
If heaven was a town
It would be my town
Oh, on a summer day in 1985
And everything I wanted was out there waitin'
And everyone I loved was still alive
Don't cry a tear for me now baby
There comes a time
We all must say goodbye
And if that's what heaven's made of
You know I - I ain't afraid to die
If heaven was a pie it would be cherry
So cool and sweet and heavy on the top
And just one bite could satisfy your hunger
And there'd always be enough for everyone
If heaven was a train it sure would be a fast one
That could taKe this weary traveler round the bend
If heaven was a tear, it'd be my last one
And you'd be in my arms again
Don't cry a tear for me now baby
There comes a time
We all must say goodbye
And if that's what heaven's made of
You know I - I ain't afraid to die
Yeah if that's what heaven's made of
You know I. . .
I ain't afraid. . .
To die. . .
George "Pop-Pop" Miller - June 17, 2006
randomness
Monday, July 10, 2006
Current mood: sleepy
TEN random things about me
1.: I have to have at least an hour to straighten my hair
2.: I thinK people who bleach their hair just looK faKe
3.: I can't stand it when people call me Kathy
4.: I can read up to four books at the same time
5.: I can't stand sweet tea
6.: I've never had a boyfriend
7.: I can't stand meaningless chit chat
8.: I love trying out different looks with maKe up
9.: I have this habit of wasting money
10.: I can't stand a mess but I'm too lazy to clean it up
NINE ways to win my heart
1.: Be spontanious
2.: Don't be too terribly romantic
3.: But still do sweet little things every now and again
4.: Don't do something to maKe me distrust you
5.: Do crazy things with me
6.: MaKe me smile
7.: Don't maKe me cry
8.: Hold my hand. . .in FRONT of your friends
9.: Surprise me by hugging me from behind
EIGHT things I want to do before I die
1.: Find true love
2.: Star in a movie
3.: BacKpacK through Europe
4.: Visit the Seven Wonders
5.: Own at least two horses
6.: Visit every state in the US
7.: Go scuba diving
8.: Live in Paris, Rome, London, and Ireland for at least a year each
SEVEN ways to annoy me
1.: Be two faced
2.: Bad mouth my friends
3.: Complain all the time
4.: Ignorance
5.: Be judgemental
6.: Put down mine or someone else's dreams
7.: Answer your cell phone during a conversation then completely ignore me
SIX turn ons
1.: TaKing charge
2.: Nice eyes
3.: Full lips
4.: DarK hair
5.: Great smile
6.: Down to earth & laid bacK
FIVE things I'm afraid of
1.: Spiders
2.: Roaches
3.: Being alone
4.: Fear
5.: Becoming someone I'm not proud of
FOUR favorite items in my room
1.: My bed
2.: My clothes
3.: Pictures
4.: Music & CDs
THREE things I do every day
1.: Brush my teeth
2.: Shower
3.: Eat
TWO things I want to do right now
1.: Be at the beach
2.: Tell someone how I feel
ONE person I want to see right now
1.: My granddad
Current mood: sleepy
TEN random things about me
1.: I have to have at least an hour to straighten my hair
2.: I thinK people who bleach their hair just looK faKe
3.: I can't stand it when people call me Kathy
4.: I can read up to four books at the same time
5.: I can't stand sweet tea
6.: I've never had a boyfriend
7.: I can't stand meaningless chit chat
8.: I love trying out different looks with maKe up
9.: I have this habit of wasting money
10.: I can't stand a mess but I'm too lazy to clean it up
NINE ways to win my heart
1.: Be spontanious
2.: Don't be too terribly romantic
3.: But still do sweet little things every now and again
4.: Don't do something to maKe me distrust you
5.: Do crazy things with me
6.: MaKe me smile
7.: Don't maKe me cry
8.: Hold my hand. . .in FRONT of your friends
9.: Surprise me by hugging me from behind
EIGHT things I want to do before I die
1.: Find true love
2.: Star in a movie
3.: BacKpacK through Europe
4.: Visit the Seven Wonders
5.: Own at least two horses
6.: Visit every state in the US
7.: Go scuba diving
8.: Live in Paris, Rome, London, and Ireland for at least a year each
SEVEN ways to annoy me
1.: Be two faced
2.: Bad mouth my friends
3.: Complain all the time
4.: Ignorance
5.: Be judgemental
6.: Put down mine or someone else's dreams
7.: Answer your cell phone during a conversation then completely ignore me
SIX turn ons
1.: TaKing charge
2.: Nice eyes
3.: Full lips
4.: DarK hair
5.: Great smile
6.: Down to earth & laid bacK
FIVE things I'm afraid of
1.: Spiders
2.: Roaches
3.: Being alone
4.: Fear
5.: Becoming someone I'm not proud of
FOUR favorite items in my room
1.: My bed
2.: My clothes
3.: Pictures
4.: Music & CDs
THREE things I do every day
1.: Brush my teeth
2.: Shower
3.: Eat
TWO things I want to do right now
1.: Be at the beach
2.: Tell someone how I feel
ONE person I want to see right now
1.: My granddad
so i'm leaving tomorrow
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Current mood: awake
i'm leaving tomorrow
which is really today
thanKs to this touch of insomnia that's consuming me
two weeKs away from home minus a day is a lot
and i don't Know why i'm complaining.
maybe it's due to the fact that my parents aren't here as i leave??
weird
i've thought time and time again about deleting this whole myspace thing
i mean, really
i can't sleep so i get on here
and pour heart and soul out
over a Keyboard
to people who probably could care less about me
and the people i want to care don't
and that's just a little f'ed up.
i mean, really?
why can't he see how much he has confused me?
i've always come this close to telling him
then something inside is always liKe
remember the fun you guys have as just friends
do you really wanna go and screw that up?
of course, i wouldn't expect anyone to understand what i'm saying
you can never fully understand someone
even if that person is yourself
and it maKes me wonder
when i die, what will people thinK of me?
cause they sure as hell aren't gonna thinK what i thinK of me
i just wish i had someone to talK to
but no one seems to understand
so i'm just going on and on in a blog
hoping someone will stumble upon it and give me some
worth while advice other than
you're a great person shit
whatever
half the stuff i've done even i'm not proud of
how can you be proud of it?
it's two years before i leave for college
and already my friends are splitting up
molly's in thailand
monica's moving (maybe, more than liKely) to dutch forK
maybe i should act liKe this is college
and start off completely new this year
maybe form to some other stereotype that people always
use now a days to explain why people act differently
than they do.
once again,
whatever.
and if you are gonna comment this with some
f'ed up stuff about me being a great person or whatever
you're wasting your time
i already Know i'm not
in my opinion anyway
and right now, that's the only person i'm listening to.
_-Kat-_
Current mood: awake
i'm leaving tomorrow
which is really today
thanKs to this touch of insomnia that's consuming me
two weeKs away from home minus a day is a lot
and i don't Know why i'm complaining.
maybe it's due to the fact that my parents aren't here as i leave??
weird
i've thought time and time again about deleting this whole myspace thing
i mean, really
i can't sleep so i get on here
and pour heart and soul out
over a Keyboard
to people who probably could care less about me
and the people i want to care don't
and that's just a little f'ed up.
i mean, really?
why can't he see how much he has confused me?
i've always come this close to telling him
then something inside is always liKe
remember the fun you guys have as just friends
do you really wanna go and screw that up?
of course, i wouldn't expect anyone to understand what i'm saying
you can never fully understand someone
even if that person is yourself
and it maKes me wonder
when i die, what will people thinK of me?
cause they sure as hell aren't gonna thinK what i thinK of me
i just wish i had someone to talK to
but no one seems to understand
so i'm just going on and on in a blog
hoping someone will stumble upon it and give me some
worth while advice other than
you're a great person shit
whatever
half the stuff i've done even i'm not proud of
how can you be proud of it?
it's two years before i leave for college
and already my friends are splitting up
molly's in thailand
monica's moving (maybe, more than liKely) to dutch forK
maybe i should act liKe this is college
and start off completely new this year
maybe form to some other stereotype that people always
use now a days to explain why people act differently
than they do.
once again,
whatever.
and if you are gonna comment this with some
f'ed up stuff about me being a great person or whatever
you're wasting your time
i already Know i'm not
in my opinion anyway
and right now, that's the only person i'm listening to.
_-Kat-_
soundtracK of my life
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Current mood: lazy
Category: Music
The soundtracK to my life would be ...
Opening credits: "Pump It" BlacK Eyed Peas
WaKing up: "Something More" Sugarland
Average day: "4ever" The Veronicas
First date: "Don't Stop Believin'" Journey
Falling in love: "Whenever, Wherever" ShaKira
Love scene: "I Bruise Easily" Natashia Bedinfield
Fight scene: "A Little Less Than Sixteen Candles" Fall Out Boy
Breaking up: "Leave The Pieces" The WrecKers
Getting bacK together: "In The Rough" Anna NalicK
Secret love: "Somebody To Love" Queen
Life's oKay: "Heaven Is A Place On Earth" BecKy Baeling
Mental breakdown: "Life Ain't Always Beautiful" Gary Allan
Missing someone: "Where'd You Go" Fort Minor
Driving: "Life Is A Highway" Rascal Flatts
Learning a lesson: "Unbelievable" Kaci Brown
Deep thought: "One Step Up" Kenny Chesney
FlashbacK: "Remember The Magic" Brian McKnight
Happy dance: "Footloose" Kenny Loggins
Partying: "Promiscuous" Nelly Furtado
Dance in underwear scene: "Man! I Feel LiKe A Woman" Shania Twain
Regreting: "Free Fallin" Tom Petty
Long night alone: "Godspeed" Dixie ChicKs
Death scene: "Tears In Heaven" Eric Clapton
Closing credits: "I Dare You" Shinedown
Current mood: lazy
Category: Music
The soundtracK to my life would be ...
Opening credits: "Pump It" BlacK Eyed Peas
WaKing up: "Something More" Sugarland
Average day: "4ever" The Veronicas
First date: "Don't Stop Believin'" Journey
Falling in love: "Whenever, Wherever" ShaKira
Love scene: "I Bruise Easily" Natashia Bedinfield
Fight scene: "A Little Less Than Sixteen Candles" Fall Out Boy
Breaking up: "Leave The Pieces" The WrecKers
Getting bacK together: "In The Rough" Anna NalicK
Secret love: "Somebody To Love" Queen
Life's oKay: "Heaven Is A Place On Earth" BecKy Baeling
Mental breakdown: "Life Ain't Always Beautiful" Gary Allan
Missing someone: "Where'd You Go" Fort Minor
Driving: "Life Is A Highway" Rascal Flatts
Learning a lesson: "Unbelievable" Kaci Brown
Deep thought: "One Step Up" Kenny Chesney
FlashbacK: "Remember The Magic" Brian McKnight
Happy dance: "Footloose" Kenny Loggins
Partying: "Promiscuous" Nelly Furtado
Dance in underwear scene: "Man! I Feel LiKe A Woman" Shania Twain
Regreting: "Free Fallin" Tom Petty
Long night alone: "Godspeed" Dixie ChicKs
Death scene: "Tears In Heaven" Eric Clapton
Closing credits: "I Dare You" Shinedown
a tribute
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Current mood: pessimistic
This is my tribute to the nice girls that have gone through this stuff too. To the nice girls who are overlooKed, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looK and personalities and their actions because it must be that they are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either. For the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to Keep alive that hope that maybe. . .maybe this time he'll have understood. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the right words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who Know that guys are just as scared as they are, who Know that they deserve better, who are seeKing to find it. This is for the girls who have never been in love, but Know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. This is for the girls who have spent their weeKends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunK phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to maKe someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, sho have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a sKirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaKing off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend. Theis one's for the girls who have been led on by words and Kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looKing to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too high and mighty to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talKing a little too softly to the girl in the corner, and you're wishing withe everything in youit could be you instead of her. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog dies or his grandmother dies or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinKing that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his bacK in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep. This is for the "I really liKe you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which maKe you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermat of your tears, Knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nigths we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted.
Current mood: pessimistic
This is my tribute to the nice girls that have gone through this stuff too. To the nice girls who are overlooKed, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looK and personalities and their actions because it must be that they are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either. For the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to Keep alive that hope that maybe. . .maybe this time he'll have understood. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the right words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who Know that guys are just as scared as they are, who Know that they deserve better, who are seeKing to find it. This is for the girls who have never been in love, but Know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. This is for the girls who have spent their weeKends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunK phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to maKe someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, sho have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a sKirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaKing off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend. Theis one's for the girls who have been led on by words and Kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looKing to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too high and mighty to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talKing a little too softly to the girl in the corner, and you're wishing withe everything in youit could be you instead of her. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog dies or his grandmother dies or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinKing that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his bacK in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep. This is for the "I really liKe you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which maKe you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermat of your tears, Knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nigths we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted.
directed to someone
Monday, July 31, 2006
Current mood: exhausted
so i heard this song on the radio today
and it's maKing sense now
so now it's directed to a certain someone
and if you don't Know who that is, don't asK
cause i more than liKely won't tell
hopefully, you'll figure it out on your own
Life's liKe this
That's the way it is
Cause life's liKe this
That's the way it is
Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay bacK
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
I liKe you the way you are
When we're drivin in your car
And you're talKin to me one-on-one
But you become
Somebody else
Round everyone else
You're watchin your bacK
LiKe you can't relax
You're tryin to be cool
You looK liKe a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and maKe things so complicated
I see the way you're actin liKe you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's liKe this you
You fall and you crawl and you breaK and you taKe what you get
And you're turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you faKe it
No no no
You come over unannounced
Dressed up liKe you're something else
Where you are ain't where it's at you see
You're maKin me
Laugh out
When you striKe a pose
TaKe off
All your preppy clothes
You Know
You're not foolin anyone
When you become
Somebody else
Round everyone else
You're watchin your bacK
LiKe you can't relax
You're tryin to be cool
You looK liKe a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and maKe things so complicated
I see the way you're actin liKe you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's liKe this you
You fall and you crawl and you breaK and you taKe what you get
And you're turnin into
Honestly you promised me
I'm never gonna find you faKe it
No no no
(No no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no
Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay bacK
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
Somebody else
Round everyone else
You're watchin your bacK
LiKe you can't relax
You're tryin to be cool
You looK liKe a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and maKe things so complicated
I see the way you're actin liKe you're somebody else
Gets me frusterated
Life's liKe this you
You fall and you crawl and you breaK and you taKe what you get
And you're turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you faKe it
No no
Why'd you have to go and maKe things so complicated
(yeah yeah)
I see the way you're actin liKe you're somebody else
Gets me frusterated
Life's liKe this you
You fall and you crawl and you breaK and you taKe what you get
And you're turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you faKe it
No no no
Current mood: exhausted
so i heard this song on the radio today
and it's maKing sense now
so now it's directed to a certain someone
and if you don't Know who that is, don't asK
cause i more than liKely won't tell
hopefully, you'll figure it out on your own
Life's liKe this
That's the way it is
Cause life's liKe this
That's the way it is
Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay bacK
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
I liKe you the way you are
When we're drivin in your car
And you're talKin to me one-on-one
But you become
Somebody else
Round everyone else
You're watchin your bacK
LiKe you can't relax
You're tryin to be cool
You looK liKe a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and maKe things so complicated
I see the way you're actin liKe you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's liKe this you
You fall and you crawl and you breaK and you taKe what you get
And you're turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you faKe it
No no no
You come over unannounced
Dressed up liKe you're something else
Where you are ain't where it's at you see
You're maKin me
Laugh out
When you striKe a pose
TaKe off
All your preppy clothes
You Know
You're not foolin anyone
When you become
Somebody else
Round everyone else
You're watchin your bacK
LiKe you can't relax
You're tryin to be cool
You looK liKe a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and maKe things so complicated
I see the way you're actin liKe you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's liKe this you
You fall and you crawl and you breaK and you taKe what you get
And you're turnin into
Honestly you promised me
I'm never gonna find you faKe it
No no no
(No no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no
Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay bacK
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
Somebody else
Round everyone else
You're watchin your bacK
LiKe you can't relax
You're tryin to be cool
You looK liKe a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and maKe things so complicated
I see the way you're actin liKe you're somebody else
Gets me frusterated
Life's liKe this you
You fall and you crawl and you breaK and you taKe what you get
And you're turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you faKe it
No no
Why'd you have to go and maKe things so complicated
(yeah yeah)
I see the way you're actin liKe you're somebody else
Gets me frusterated
Life's liKe this you
You fall and you crawl and you breaK and you taKe what you get
And you're turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you faKe it
No no no
Schedule.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Current mood: refreshed
So here's my schedule for this year. . .
Compare if you wish. . .
A-DAY
1st BlocK - AP Calculus (@ Newberry High) Shealy
2nd BlocK - Spanish 3 Marlowe
3rd BlocK - Chemistry Graham
4th BlocK - English 4 Honors Biltz
B-Day
1st BlocK - Chorus 3 Honors Grimsley
2nd BlocK - Speech && Creative Writing Biltz
3rd BlocK - AP Art Murphy
4th BlocK - AP European History Smith
Homeroom: Wise
Current mood: refreshed
So here's my schedule for this year. . .
Compare if you wish. . .
A-DAY
1st BlocK - AP Calculus (@ Newberry High) Shealy
2nd BlocK - Spanish 3 Marlowe
3rd BlocK - Chemistry Graham
4th BlocK - English 4 Honors Biltz
B-Day
1st BlocK - Chorus 3 Honors Grimsley
2nd BlocK - Speech && Creative Writing Biltz
3rd BlocK - AP Art Murphy
4th BlocK - AP European History Smith
Homeroom: Wise
one girl revelation
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Current mood: content
Category: Religion and Philosophy
So, while at Asbury Hills
It seems that God had His own plan going on
If you've never just laid on your back
And looKed up at the sKy
You should really try it sometime
We were night swimming
And before you can actually swim,
You have to taKe the swim test
So we were floating on our bacKs
And then I look up at the sKy
And that minute seemed to last forever and ended in no time at all
It was liKe this huge expanse
With little stars that dotted everywhere
And at that moment, it was liKe
Wow
God did all this
And then He sent His son
To die for me
I was completely awestrucK
And also totally humbled
It maKes me want to live life
LiKe there's no tomorrow
And to live every minute for Him
And then everything else we saw that weeK
Added to it
When you're out there
Surrounded by everything that God made
And that He has to offer
And what you can offer Him
It's amazing
And magnifies everything that I've been taught
It's just crazy cool how things can happen liKe that
So that's my story
And for my favorite bible verse:
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."
-Joshua 1:9
god bless
Current mood: content
Category: Religion and Philosophy
So, while at Asbury Hills
It seems that God had His own plan going on
If you've never just laid on your back
And looKed up at the sKy
You should really try it sometime
We were night swimming
And before you can actually swim,
You have to taKe the swim test
So we were floating on our bacKs
And then I look up at the sKy
And that minute seemed to last forever and ended in no time at all
It was liKe this huge expanse
With little stars that dotted everywhere
And at that moment, it was liKe
Wow
God did all this
And then He sent His son
To die for me
I was completely awestrucK
And also totally humbled
It maKes me want to live life
LiKe there's no tomorrow
And to live every minute for Him
And then everything else we saw that weeK
Added to it
When you're out there
Surrounded by everything that God made
And that He has to offer
And what you can offer Him
It's amazing
And magnifies everything that I've been taught
It's just crazy cool how things can happen liKe that
So that's my story
And for my favorite bible verse:
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."
-Joshua 1:9
god bless
Sunday, April 11, 2010
salKehatchie
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Current mood: lonely
Yeah.
Right now I'm missing it
To the exxtreme.
So, my discovery,
Garden City=me completely happy
SalKehatchie=me happier than that
Current mood: lonely
Yeah.
Right now I'm missing it
To the exxtreme.
So, my discovery,
Garden City=me completely happy
SalKehatchie=me happier than that
laguna bi-otch
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Current mood: sleepy
this is pretty funny,
unless, you actually liKe laguna beach
Current mood: sleepy
this is pretty funny,
unless, you actually liKe laguna beach
dreams
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
So, I had a weird dream last night...
I'm at the church for this Christmas dinner/show thing and all the girls have to wear the same thing, which is this really pretty blue dress. But, mine's way too small. So I decide to be an individual and wear what I want to. But it ends up being the same thing anyway. So then, me, a friend, and these two guys (I've never seen before in real life, but one of them is supposed to be my best friend) leave to go somewhere. But, we end up getting arrested because I was driving past curfew. We get out, but I don't Know how and we end up going bacK to my house. Except, it's not my house. It's got liKe this tiKi theme going on with a pool that goes around the entire house. I've seen the house before in a dream, but it was never mine.
So, anyway, there's this party going on. I run into one of my best guy friends and notice he has an earring which is really weird because he always gets freaKed out whenever I put mine in or taKe them out.
Anyways, all of a sudden there is no party and I'm on liKe this flat roof type thing with all these candles and blanKets that looK liKe an Arabian night type theme. This is when I find out that the guy that is supposedly my best friend is in jail, again. But for what, I don't Know. So one of my friend's moms decides to light a bunch of candles on the roof so that when he gets out, they'll lead him home (you Know, liKe they did in the old days, whatever.) I volunteer to stay on the roof every night to maKe sure the candles don't go out, because apparently at this point, I was liKe in love with this guy.
So, three nights later, he's bacK and I'm the first person he sees. He tells me that he didn't need the candles because the police brought him bacK but he appreciated me doing and I'm the best best friend that any guy could ever asK for. And then he gives me this huge hug and leaves and I'm Kinda disappointed because I thought he liKed me too and was gonna Kiss me or something, I don't Know. So he leaves and I lay down on this couch/lounge thing and then he comes bacK.
I tell him that I have a crush on one of my best guy friends and I don't thinK he liKes me more than a friend (you Know, dropping him hints) and he opens his mouth to say something and then I waKe up.
How lame is that? I didn't even get to hear what he was going to say. So are there any "dream doctors" out there who can tell me what this means, cause I'm trying to figure it out.
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
So, I had a weird dream last night...
I'm at the church for this Christmas dinner/show thing and all the girls have to wear the same thing, which is this really pretty blue dress. But, mine's way too small. So I decide to be an individual and wear what I want to. But it ends up being the same thing anyway. So then, me, a friend, and these two guys (I've never seen before in real life, but one of them is supposed to be my best friend) leave to go somewhere. But, we end up getting arrested because I was driving past curfew. We get out, but I don't Know how and we end up going bacK to my house. Except, it's not my house. It's got liKe this tiKi theme going on with a pool that goes around the entire house. I've seen the house before in a dream, but it was never mine.
So, anyway, there's this party going on. I run into one of my best guy friends and notice he has an earring which is really weird because he always gets freaKed out whenever I put mine in or taKe them out.
Anyways, all of a sudden there is no party and I'm on liKe this flat roof type thing with all these candles and blanKets that looK liKe an Arabian night type theme. This is when I find out that the guy that is supposedly my best friend is in jail, again. But for what, I don't Know. So one of my friend's moms decides to light a bunch of candles on the roof so that when he gets out, they'll lead him home (you Know, liKe they did in the old days, whatever.) I volunteer to stay on the roof every night to maKe sure the candles don't go out, because apparently at this point, I was liKe in love with this guy.
So, three nights later, he's bacK and I'm the first person he sees. He tells me that he didn't need the candles because the police brought him bacK but he appreciated me doing and I'm the best best friend that any guy could ever asK for. And then he gives me this huge hug and leaves and I'm Kinda disappointed because I thought he liKed me too and was gonna Kiss me or something, I don't Know. So he leaves and I lay down on this couch/lounge thing and then he comes bacK.
I tell him that I have a crush on one of my best guy friends and I don't thinK he liKes me more than a friend (you Know, dropping him hints) and he opens his mouth to say something and then I waKe up.
How lame is that? I didn't even get to hear what he was going to say. So are there any "dream doctors" out there who can tell me what this means, cause I'm trying to figure it out.
amazing how some words just come to you...
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a friend?
A classmate
A soulmate
Secrets, Stories, Laughs
Hold on to the memories;
They always last
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a child?
A youth
A Kid
Innocence, Naive, An unforgotten past.
Hold on to the memories;
They always last
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a girl
A girlfriend
A best friend
Grace, Beauty, Charm
Hold onto the memories;
As you held her in your arms
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a daughter
A companion
A friend
Losing a daughter, it's hard to describe
Hold on to the memories;
They'll Keep you alive
Live for her,
Your friend,
Your child,
Your girl,
Your daughter.
Her time was up
Our second chance is now
Don't give up
Show her how
You'll live your life
And maKe her proud
And then, one day,
Join her,
At her home in the clouds
Then you're together,
Never to be torn apart
She's just as you remembered her,
As you carried her in your heart.
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a friend?
A classmate
A soulmate
Secrets, Stories, Laughs
Hold on to the memories;
They always last
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a child?
A youth
A Kid
Innocence, Naive, An unforgotten past.
Hold on to the memories;
They always last
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a girl
A girlfriend
A best friend
Grace, Beauty, Charm
Hold onto the memories;
As you held her in your arms
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a daughter
A companion
A friend
Losing a daughter, it's hard to describe
Hold on to the memories;
They'll Keep you alive
Live for her,
Your friend,
Your child,
Your girl,
Your daughter.
Her time was up
Our second chance is now
Don't give up
Show her how
You'll live your life
And maKe her proud
And then, one day,
Join her,
At her home in the clouds
Then you're together,
Never to be torn apart
She's just as you remembered her,
As you carried her in your heart.
this is what happens when you let Kat write poetry...
Friday, September 15, 2006
Current mood: good
Dream
Here I am
There you are
Standing side by side
Yet you're so far
I want it bacK
The way it was
Whose idea was this?
What was the cause?
How did we go
From so much more
To just friends?
Is this how
The story ends?
What about the love?
And the passion we shared?
Has it all been erased-
Was it even there?
Or was that a dream
I imagined we shared?
And I just woKe up to see
It was never there.
Lust
Between who I am and who you are
The distance is never far
You complete me
In more ways than one
And this endless cycle
Is always won
Your bacK is arched
As I lie flat
You become a part of me
And I won't looK bacK
This passion and lust we share
Is stronger than anything out there
Who would've thought?
We're only sixteen
But I Know who you are
And this is what I believe
I can't waKe up-
This is no dream
As you lie there, next to me
I can't help but thinKing of more-
It's a hunger in me
I Kiss you softly as we fall asleep
Then waKe up once more
To relive our dream.
Ecstasy
I become a part of it
As the waves crash over me
I'm floating calmly
In a cool, endless sea
The world around me
Just melts away
I'm ready, it's waiting
To show me the way
I'm falling, standing still
And all I feel
Is complete ecstacy
It's taKing the wheel
I let it drive me away
Where there is nothing bad
And what I was searching for
I already had
I become a part of it
As the waves crash over me
I'm floating calmly
In a cool, endless sea
Explore
Falling
Falling into a great abyss
To find myself,
I must get out.
But how?
How do I fall up
Or travel through
Nothing?
Am I just stucK-
Never Knowing?
Who I was-
Who I'll be-
Who I am
I'm a complete mystery to me
I want to become drunK with Knowledge-
Knowledge of myself
But the more I Know,
The farther I fall
Away from the light
And into the darKness
A great vastness
That I am afraid of
Yet explore further still.
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a friend?
A classmate
A soulmate
Secrets, Stories, Laughs
Hold on to the memories;
They always last
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a child?
A youth
A Kid
Innocence, Naive, An unforgotten past.
Hold on to the memories;
They always last
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a girl
A girlfriend
A best friend
Grace, Beauty, Charm
Hold onto the memories;
As you held her in your arms
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a daughter
A companion
A friend
Losing a daughter, it's hard to describe
Hold on to the memories;
They'll Keep you alive
Live for her,
Your friend,
Your child,
Your girl,
Your daughter.
Her time was up
Our second chance is now
Don't give up
Show her how
You'll live your life
And maKe her proud
And then, one day,
Join her,
At her home in the clouds
Then you're together,
Never to be torn apart
She's just as you remembered her,
As you carried her in your heart.
Current mood: good
Dream
Here I am
There you are
Standing side by side
Yet you're so far
I want it bacK
The way it was
Whose idea was this?
What was the cause?
How did we go
From so much more
To just friends?
Is this how
The story ends?
What about the love?
And the passion we shared?
Has it all been erased-
Was it even there?
Or was that a dream
I imagined we shared?
And I just woKe up to see
It was never there.
Lust
Between who I am and who you are
The distance is never far
You complete me
In more ways than one
And this endless cycle
Is always won
Your bacK is arched
As I lie flat
You become a part of me
And I won't looK bacK
This passion and lust we share
Is stronger than anything out there
Who would've thought?
We're only sixteen
But I Know who you are
And this is what I believe
I can't waKe up-
This is no dream
As you lie there, next to me
I can't help but thinKing of more-
It's a hunger in me
I Kiss you softly as we fall asleep
Then waKe up once more
To relive our dream.
Ecstasy
I become a part of it
As the waves crash over me
I'm floating calmly
In a cool, endless sea
The world around me
Just melts away
I'm ready, it's waiting
To show me the way
I'm falling, standing still
And all I feel
Is complete ecstacy
It's taKing the wheel
I let it drive me away
Where there is nothing bad
And what I was searching for
I already had
I become a part of it
As the waves crash over me
I'm floating calmly
In a cool, endless sea
Explore
Falling
Falling into a great abyss
To find myself,
I must get out.
But how?
How do I fall up
Or travel through
Nothing?
Am I just stucK-
Never Knowing?
Who I was-
Who I'll be-
Who I am
I'm a complete mystery to me
I want to become drunK with Knowledge-
Knowledge of myself
But the more I Know,
The farther I fall
Away from the light
And into the darKness
A great vastness
That I am afraid of
Yet explore further still.
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a friend?
A classmate
A soulmate
Secrets, Stories, Laughs
Hold on to the memories;
They always last
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a child?
A youth
A Kid
Innocence, Naive, An unforgotten past.
Hold on to the memories;
They always last
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a girl
A girlfriend
A best friend
Grace, Beauty, Charm
Hold onto the memories;
As you held her in your arms
Do you Know what it's liKe
To bury a daughter
A companion
A friend
Losing a daughter, it's hard to describe
Hold on to the memories;
They'll Keep you alive
Live for her,
Your friend,
Your child,
Your girl,
Your daughter.
Her time was up
Our second chance is now
Don't give up
Show her how
You'll live your life
And maKe her proud
And then, one day,
Join her,
At her home in the clouds
Then you're together,
Never to be torn apart
She's just as you remembered her,
As you carried her in your heart.
annoyed
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Current mood: annoyed
You Know what I find extremely annoying? How much society puts on looKs now a days. I mean, being sicK and all, all I've been able to do is watch tv and there are so many commercials for things to maKe you looK younger, fresher, different, blonde, brunette, "better."
OK, seriously. Since when is 38 years considered old? Hundreds of years ago, you probably would've been dead by then. Now you're complaining because of a few lines? According to WiKipedia Encyclopedia (yes, I did my homeworK, people) life expectancy today is 80. Anyone born after 2000's life expectancy is 90. And 10% of them will reach 100. Compare that to ancient Greece and Rome where the life expectancy was 28? Come on people. Really.
Age is not a number. It's a state of mind. So get over what you thinK you looK liKe and worry more about actually living your life. OKay. Rant over. Have a nice day!
Current mood: annoyed
You Know what I find extremely annoying? How much society puts on looKs now a days. I mean, being sicK and all, all I've been able to do is watch tv and there are so many commercials for things to maKe you looK younger, fresher, different, blonde, brunette, "better."
OK, seriously. Since when is 38 years considered old? Hundreds of years ago, you probably would've been dead by then. Now you're complaining because of a few lines? According to WiKipedia Encyclopedia (yes, I did my homeworK, people) life expectancy today is 80. Anyone born after 2000's life expectancy is 90. And 10% of them will reach 100. Compare that to ancient Greece and Rome where the life expectancy was 28? Come on people. Really.
Age is not a number. It's a state of mind. So get over what you thinK you looK liKe and worry more about actually living your life. OKay. Rant over. Have a nice day!
Face Down
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Current mood: amused
Some things I've learned so far this weekend
The best movie that will ever make me cry more than once and will probably make me cry everytime I see it (other than Remember the Titans) is Rent. I recommend you all see it. I haven't seen the actual musical and if you have, I envy you.
If one person in Newberry has a party, you can pretty much guarantee anyone you had hoped to see this weekend will be at that party as there is no one in this town. (I exaggerate, of course, but you get my point)
Domestic violence sucks. The song Face Down by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus sums up anything I would ever want to say about it. Does it really make you feel big and bad because you can beat up someone weaker than you? Do you really expect that person to follow you around forever? One day, they're gonna find their strength, leave your ass, and throw you in jail. Learn this. Stop this. Kay, thanks.
I've learned that New York is the place I want to be. Either there or Europe, Italy or England, specifically. But I think I'll start with New York.
I've also learned that I tend to obsess over movies.
Later loves,
_-Kat-_
Current mood: amused
Some things I've learned so far this weekend
The best movie that will ever make me cry more than once and will probably make me cry everytime I see it (other than Remember the Titans) is Rent. I recommend you all see it. I haven't seen the actual musical and if you have, I envy you.
If one person in Newberry has a party, you can pretty much guarantee anyone you had hoped to see this weekend will be at that party as there is no one in this town. (I exaggerate, of course, but you get my point)
Domestic violence sucks. The song Face Down by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus sums up anything I would ever want to say about it. Does it really make you feel big and bad because you can beat up someone weaker than you? Do you really expect that person to follow you around forever? One day, they're gonna find their strength, leave your ass, and throw you in jail. Learn this. Stop this. Kay, thanks.
I've learned that New York is the place I want to be. Either there or Europe, Italy or England, specifically. But I think I'll start with New York.
I've also learned that I tend to obsess over movies.
Later loves,
_-Kat-_
So, yeah
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Current mood: bored
I'm tired
I have speech tomorrow
And I have to speaK
I hate it
Maybe not so much
If the class were an actual audience
I'm weird liKe that
Volleyball sucKs
We missed play-offs by one game
That we should've won
I barely got to play
Emerald is just too far of a drive
I'm going to Ally's tomorrow
It's not gonna be the same
It's been forever since it's just been me and her
At her house
Usually there's a couple more people
Invited, and un-invited
The guys who usually come
Are getting on my nerves
So hopefully they'll be avoidable
Or just thinK that Ally's out of soda
You wouldn't understand
I'm rambling
If you tooK the time to read this,
Kudos to you
Not to me
Cause even though I realize I'm rambling
I'm not stopping
Deal or No Deal has probably the stupidest people
Ever on any type of game show
And I'm not talKing about just the
Germ-a-phobe they have for a host
Tomorrow's an easy day
I just wish chorus wasn't first thing in the morning
Kills my throat
Oh, well
Schedules sucK
Not just school ones either
I can never sticK to one
I'm way too artistic
While on the bench tonight,
I critiqued Emerald's mural on their gym
ThanKs Mrs. Murphy
Ah,
Is anyone selling lives?
I'm in need of one
Current mood: bored
I'm tired
I have speech tomorrow
And I have to speaK
I hate it
Maybe not so much
If the class were an actual audience
I'm weird liKe that
Volleyball sucKs
We missed play-offs by one game
That we should've won
I barely got to play
Emerald is just too far of a drive
I'm going to Ally's tomorrow
It's not gonna be the same
It's been forever since it's just been me and her
At her house
Usually there's a couple more people
Invited, and un-invited
The guys who usually come
Are getting on my nerves
So hopefully they'll be avoidable
Or just thinK that Ally's out of soda
You wouldn't understand
I'm rambling
If you tooK the time to read this,
Kudos to you
Not to me
Cause even though I realize I'm rambling
I'm not stopping
Deal or No Deal has probably the stupidest people
Ever on any type of game show
And I'm not talKing about just the
Germ-a-phobe they have for a host
Tomorrow's an easy day
I just wish chorus wasn't first thing in the morning
Kills my throat
Oh, well
Schedules sucK
Not just school ones either
I can never sticK to one
I'm way too artistic
While on the bench tonight,
I critiqued Emerald's mural on their gym
ThanKs Mrs. Murphy
Ah,
Is anyone selling lives?
I'm in need of one
Now and Then
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Current mood: cold
A bit of wisdom for all of us from the movie Now and Then
Trini: OKay, Chrissy, truth or dare?
Chrissy: Truth
Trini: Have you ever french Kissed a boy?
Chrissy: Are you Kidding? I don't wanna get pregnant!
Roberta: You can't get pregnant from Kissing a boy.
Chrissy: I Know that. But it's common Knowledge that if you tongue Kiss a boy, he automatically thinKs you'll want to do the deed with him. They can't help it. They're driven. It's the male curse.
Samantha: And, uh, what "deed" would that be?
Chrissy: You know. Planting the seed and watering the flower. *all giggle* Isn't that how it worKs? The man taKes his watering can and sprinKles it on the flower.
Current mood: cold
A bit of wisdom for all of us from the movie Now and Then
Trini: OKay, Chrissy, truth or dare?
Chrissy: Truth
Trini: Have you ever french Kissed a boy?
Chrissy: Are you Kidding? I don't wanna get pregnant!
Roberta: You can't get pregnant from Kissing a boy.
Chrissy: I Know that. But it's common Knowledge that if you tongue Kiss a boy, he automatically thinKs you'll want to do the deed with him. They can't help it. They're driven. It's the male curse.
Samantha: And, uh, what "deed" would that be?
Chrissy: You know. Planting the seed and watering the flower. *all giggle* Isn't that how it worKs? The man taKes his watering can and sprinKles it on the flower.
Leave me alone, I'm bored
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Current mood: good
Never thinK that you're not good enough for anyone; always asK yourself if they are good enough for you.
Trying to forget someone you love is liKe trying to remember someone you never met.
What's meant to be will always find a way.
And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given
And oh how you can taKe
There's no use in you looKin
There's nothing left for you to breaK
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces
In pieces.
She is an angel with broKen wings, all she needs is love (cause no one loves an angel with no wings), tell her you love her and maybe she'll fly again.
Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.
There are some things in life that don't go the way you wanted them to or the way you thinK they should. But you can't dwell on these because you'll miss out on other opportunities. Don't give up on something just because you don't thinK things will worK. You won't Know unless you give it a try. But don't hold on to something that left a long time ago. Because, sooner or later, you'll realize some things just aren't meant to be.
It's oK, because you're in my fairy tale.
You can only see as far as you can thinK.
Current mood: good
Never thinK that you're not good enough for anyone; always asK yourself if they are good enough for you.
Trying to forget someone you love is liKe trying to remember someone you never met.
What's meant to be will always find a way.
And I don't want to see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given
And oh how you can taKe
There's no use in you looKin
There's nothing left for you to breaK
Baby please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces
In pieces.
She is an angel with broKen wings, all she needs is love (cause no one loves an angel with no wings), tell her you love her and maybe she'll fly again.
Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.
There are some things in life that don't go the way you wanted them to or the way you thinK they should. But you can't dwell on these because you'll miss out on other opportunities. Don't give up on something just because you don't thinK things will worK. You won't Know unless you give it a try. But don't hold on to something that left a long time ago. Because, sooner or later, you'll realize some things just aren't meant to be.
It's oK, because you're in my fairy tale.
You can only see as far as you can thinK.
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